The fall of 1962 found me in a place that I had never been before. I was the new kid at school. I started my junior year of high school at JEB Stuart High School and I didn't know anyone. I had never had to worry in the past about making friends or trying to fit in at school. I went to school with kids from my neighborhood and ward that I had known a long time. I had absolutely no skills when it came to making new friends. I was totally lost.
I was nervous and scared as I walked in the doors of high school on that first day. It was hard enough that I had to find my way around a new school. But not having anyone that I knew to at least help me find my way from class to class made the experience even worse. I was also upset that even though I'd been accepted into the A Capella choir at my old high school, I was put in girls chorus at the new school. I was told it was because I was basically an unknown quantity in the choral music department. I had to prove myself. It was like adding insult to injury.
On that first day of school, I discovered that I did know at least one person. When roll was called in one of my classes, a girl who had been a pretty good friend in elementary school was in the class. We made the connection. She was a cheerleader and in the very popular crowd at school. And as high school cliques go, they weren't going to just include me in their group because I was Ann's friend from elementary school. Again, I had to prove myself.
I floundered through most of my junior year trying to fit in and make friends. Thank goodness that I had associations with the kids from LDS Seminary and my ward or the year probably would have been a total disaster. I also vowed to myself, that if I could at all help it, I would never make any children that I had change high schools with only two years left. It was just too hard for me. I knew it would be hard for them.
Then I had to say goodbye to JEB Stuart in '68 when the folks moved to SLC. But I never felt like I fit in at Stuart. I wasn't a true preppy. But I didn't really fit in at Skyline, either, until maybe the last half of my senior year when I finally found a small group of misfits like me.
ReplyDeleteThat move took place while I was at BYU. When I came home the summer after the move, I felt completely displaced. I didn't return to Virginia until I graduated. My Virginia home will always be the 29th street house, which isn't there anymore. Very sad.
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